POSITIVE

I am going to look at life positively as much as I can from now on. I hate being the way I am and it doenst help me or any body else in my life.  So be prepared to see some positivity people :)

Well This sucks...

Sorry about the wait. For some reason I was blocked of my account because Google hates me ha. But more about my wonderful life, laughing at that comment btw, it is still crazy. I just had to drop out of courses because I am failing them. This brings me down to a part time student which sucks because I know have no insurance. So hopefully this will work out and I can pick up a class or something. I think I am going crazy lol. But here we go. I have decided that I am who I am and people need to get over it. I shouldn't have to be a barbie doll to be accepted.

Recently I have started shooting and I LOVE it! It is the best stress release ever. You have to focus and stay with something so you get to forget about things and tak out some targets. It is amazing, I suggest you try it sometime.

Dinosaurs

So, today I had three creepy old guys over 50 hit on me...... I am 19 people. I don't want to talk to you let alone date you. And dont call me my name just because it is on my name tag! WTH PEOPLE!! I was called sweetheart, honey, and baby doll by these guys more than one time each. Slow your roll grandpa... And no, I will not give you an extra discount or even talk to you when I get off. And stop buying underwear and clothes and asking if they are sexy... not appropriate, I can be your grandchild for heaven's sake!

Apologies

I apologize, I am getting really bad at this. I can't believe I have gone so long. I have pretty much been opening every day so I go to bed really early. For heaven's sake I woke up today at ten for no good reason at all. I am not a morning person but I am bloging in the a.m. today. I am starting to realize how boring I really am lol. I went out to eat with a friend the other day and I had a blast. We got to see a movie too and I realize how much in common I actually have with this girl. I swear she is just an older version of me. I feel like she is my mirror. Anyway, I have found out this year who is going to make an impact worthwhile in my life. This is scary since it is only August and I already have all this crap figured out... I thought this year was going to be about Love but God decided otherwise and I am ok with that. I have found out who my true friends were. I also found out why guys are such morons a lot but that's a different story. I have decided that maybe I am not ready for love. I don't even have time to look in a mirror in the morning let alone call a boyfriend and chat or hang out with them enough. This year was about finding out who my true friends are and I have five whole months left to figure out who else will be added to my list :)

It's been a while

So I haven't been on here because I have been busy, sorry. But my life is still the same lol. I did get to go out tonight with some amazing friends. Don't you hate it when some one becomes over dramatic though? I mean, calm down and get your panties out of a bunch. But any who, I promise to write something meaningful and worth looking at tomorrow :) ttyl people

The Simple Things

So today was so much better. I got to have a girls night with some friends and I had a blast. All we did was talk but I felt like I had the bets day ever because of it. We had pizza and we ate ice cream and I sound like a five year old but everything worked out great. I am starting to realize that friends come and go but you have to hold on to the ones you have for dear life. If you let go and get to carried away they will also and it is hard to get them back. College makes everything so much more difficult than it needs to be so the simple things in life are the best. Friends, they are the best :) The people in our life like family and friends are the ones that we take for granted the most which scares me because I would be nothing w/out any of them. I love them all so much and I wish I could tell them that everyday.

Lyrics of my Life

Well... today was pretty normal. We started out by yelling at each other and shouting random Harry Potter spells. Yeah.. anyways. My life is in shambles as you all could probably tell from the last post. My parents are going through a tough time and it's bringing my family down with them. My mom has some issues that are pretty much tearing us all apart and there is nothing I can do to help which sucks. My best friend has ditched me for her boyfriend who treats her like shit, but she gets pissed at me when I try to hang out with anyone else. Apparently I am a bad friend for needing someone to talk to. Great.. So I am going to keep this blog thing going so I can say what I am feeling instead of bottling it upo inside me at all times. I recently tried to explain to a friend of mine that lyrics are just what we are feeling inside. So welcome to my lyrics lol

I Don't Blog

So I have decided to try out this whole blogging thing. I have never really blogged before so this should be interesting. My life really isn't that interesting. I have a job, I go to school, and I have no boyfriend... hence the name I Love You Idiot... no one seems to get that... or maybe it's just me. I don't ever have luck with guys so I am going to blog about it, great idea huh. So pretty much if you have advice or comments do not hesitate. I'm going to be consistant about this blog deal and try ot do this almost every day. So here goes...